What is being alone used for ?

Yeah, what is being alone used for ? This question suddenly comes when I realize that I will spend the rest of today just by myself, while my best friends are with their fellas, while my family spend holiday together, while my boss enjoys his weekend by preparing his daughter's birthday party with his big family.

Sometimes I just think that it would be something unfair because I have to do everything alone while others do it together. Why can't I be like that too ? I meant to laugh with others is absolutely more fun than to laugh with no one, though I always still can enjoy it. Well, maybe that's why God didn't create only one person. He created a lot because He understood that nobody wants to be lonely, because there will be no life without togetherness.

But why do I still to be alone ? I have thought about it a lot and I haven't found what the rightest answer is, there are so many possibilities about it. But one thing I trust the most is because I need it sometimes. Yeah, sometimes I need to be alone. I need it because when I'm alone I'm entirely belong to myself. Realize or not, when we're together with others we're often being someone else and it makes us tired sometimes. We just need to be honest about it.

I didn't mean I hate to do things with others, I love it so bad. But I believe that what I've done alone - just by myself determines my worth. I definitely can see who the truly I am when I see what I've done alone. Honestly, I was afraid being alone then I realized that a lot of my unhappiness came from my fear to be alone. But what I believe now is there's nothing wrong with being alone when I need it.

When I'm tired with others I just take my time to be alone, to be someone who entirely belongs to the very real me, to be someone who really knows how to love myself. And it really works. It really works to make me still understand who exactly I am and it also reminds me that, though I can be alone in many times I can't be alone all the time on my whole life. It makes me sure that nothing ever exists entirely alone, because realize or not, want or don't want everything is in relation to everything else. And maybe the reason why it does exist is because though we were born and we will die alone, God doesn't want us to live alone.